Shop Mobile More Submit  Join Login
About Deviant Magan Edinger42/Female/United States Recent Activity
Deviant for 10 Years
Needs Core Membership
Statistics 1,366 Deviations 1,124 Comments 9,451 Pageviews

Newest Deviations

Random Favourites




Anxieties-Loneliness -Inside My Head

Anxieties,depression, insecurities, isolation,
loneliness,low self worth, shyness, OCD.
Whydo I proceed with hesitation?
Makes me feel like I am jailed in my own head.
I say no thanks to any and all of the meds.
Meds with a billion side effects, including suicide,
wanting to be dead, someone please euthanize.
Make sure you do everything times three
or panic might be widespread.

It kills me to know that those I love
would be better without, free of
me holding them back
to live their lives free and happy
not surrounded by darkness of black
not to be unhappy.

Others take for granted the simple things,
things that would make me feel alive!
Doing things in front of people like
dancing, sports, games, singing
would give me wings!
Being goofy, driving, just being me
would make me thrive!

Being the center of attention,
gives me a panic attack,
makes me sweat and shake,
feeling as if  I were in a wolf pack.
I am much happier being in the shadows
much less apprehension,
much less ache!

Always living in my head.
I don't care what people think,
yet a prisoner of my own thoughts.
How is this possible?  How is this best?
I am not afraid to speak my mind
yet I am afraid to exist?
I guess I have made my own bed
and it is now time to rest,
to quiet my head.

By Magan Edinger 5-29-2015
I just wanted to thank everyone for your support and for adding my art to your favorites.  It is much appreciated. I am thanking everyone in advance for future adds as well, just in case I do not have the time to thank you individually.  I do not have the time to come on here as much as I used to.
  • Mood: Joy


Magan Edinger
United States

I am a childe of the night,

living in the shadows,

living a lonely existence,

that no one understands.

For when you are a childe of the night,

you belong solely to the night,

and no one or nothing,

will ever be able to share you again.

So seductive and mysterious was the night,

that I gave of myself freely,

and now all that I know,

is the cold, cruel, empty night,

that I must live with for all eternity.

I am a childe of the night,

living in the shadows,

living a lonely existence,

that no one understands.

Written By NocturnalChilde

I am a very open minded, down to earth, honest, compassionate, klutzy goofball. I love all good people. I could care less if you are straight, bi, gay, trans or anything else as long as you are a good person. I have no room in my life for judgmental, prejudice people. I love nature and all animals including insects, but I especially love cats. I have three of the best cats in the world. They follow me around, sit on my lap, talk to me, sleep with me, entertain me and give me all the love in the world. They are my babies. I love tatts & piercings. I have been through a lot and have seen a lot, which has made me a very open, accepting and strong person. I love all types of music, movies, singing & dancing, writing poetry and gothic erotic stories, photography and making cards. Music, poetry and photography are my way of expressing feelings. I like to party and have fun & I am pretty much open to anything. I love any party I can dress up in costume and be goofy. I am not into drama, gossip or any of the petty bs. I think of myself as spiritual not religious. I also like a lot of things considered gothic like vampires, gargoyles, etc. I love swords and knives and collect them. I dislike prejudice, superficial, materialistic, mean, judgmental, and stuck up people. I also dislike people who pray on the weak no matter if it is human or animal. I will not judge you for being different-just be true to yourself. My dream has always been to work with wild cats.

Current Residence: Strongsville, OH
Favourite genre of music: Most of Them
Favourite photographer: Don't Have Just One
Favourite style of art: Don't Have Just One
Operating System: XP Pro
MP3 player of choice: Don't Have One
Shell of choice: Don't Have One
Wallpaper of choice: Don't Have One
Skin of choice: Don't Have One


AdCast - Ads from the Community



Add a Comment:
SHEOG0RATH Featured By Owner May 18, 2015
:cake: Happy Birthday!
MaganEdinger Featured By Owner May 29, 2015
Lilchupz Featured By Owner Mar 3, 2013  Student Traditional Artist
Cute cats~ :)
SHEOG0RATH Featured By Owner Jan 4, 2013
:iconnewyearplz: Magan!

analillithbar Featured By Owner Dec 15, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Your work has been featured here: [link]
KittySib Featured By Owner Nov 8, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the fave last year!:D
Kitteh-Pawz Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
Thanks for the :+fav:'s :)
Feel free to check out the rest of my gallery! :la:
Jaraid Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2012
Thanks a lot for the fav! :)
analillithbar Featured By Owner May 18, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
MaganEdinger Featured By Owner May 19, 2012
TY :-)
Add a Comment: